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17.1.09 18:33

17.1.09

theevilspawnsays: Cant freakin' wait to get out.

Disappointment is hard to swallow. It's the worst feeling on earth. U just feel so helpless.

It doesnt help when:

a) I did not get my HTC TOUCH PRO mobile due to my visa reasons. Which is the reason why Im still in Brisbane, rather than Malaysia. I thought that it would be better for me to stay in Brisbane and renew my student visa as I am planning on pursuing my masters program. WELL, thanks to UQ for processing stuff so bloody slowly, I have even received of offer letter yet. Which means I cant renew my visa. Not to mention, I had to miss my cousin's wedding. Farewell, my peaceful times in kl. I have to go and take care of all the problems-that-should-have-been-taken-care-off-a-long-time-ago-due-to-idiocy.

b) I waited 30 minutes for a unit inspection. And continued waiting for minutes after that and the bloody fella did not even turn up!

c) Insomnia hits for no reason and I haven slept a wink since 10am yesterday.

d) Last but not least, My stomach is not behaving well at the mo'. Feeling queasy, hungry and I cant even attend Ben's farewell dinner tonight.

e) To top it off, i went to blockbuster to rent movies to drown my sorrows and "Im sorry, the shows u wanted are not in."

DAMN DAMN DAMN.

NO MOBILE. NO VISA. NO FOOD. NO UNITS TO MOVE INTO. NO SLEEP. NO OUTLET FOR SORROWS.

I hate 17.1.09.

I know perfectly well all the things i ranted on are petty and I am very aware that I am throwing tantrums for no valid reason at all.

Guess what,

I DUN FUCKIN CARE.

I AM DISAPPOINTED AND I HATE IT.

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7.1.09 23:27

When irritation meets the will to type.

theevilspawnsays: I am in love with Eddie Peng. *drools*

Whaattttt?

Is the reaction I get when i answered the question "How did u spend ny eve?"
Is it that hard to believe that i want to spend it alone?
Is it weird that i prefer the comfort of my own home compared to sticky sweaty bodies with possible attack of body odour?
Is it such an alien thing to spend the night before 2009 with the good company of white wine and laptop?
While some may think it's pathetic, weird and generally unacceptable, I find it absolutely fine.
In fact, I had a good time.
So, please refrain yourselves when i answer that particular question.

After parents gone and having the house to myself,
I realised that I can stand being alone.
Honestly, there are times when I longed for companionship,
But being alone is not such a bad thing after all.

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1.1.09 00:48

감사합니다.

theevilspwansays: Welcomed 2009 in the toilet. -__-

Dear 2008,

I laughed, cried, cursed, smiled, loved, grieved, hugged, achieved, graduated, dissapointed, felt stupid, travelled, grew, fell and matured with you.

Thank you and Goodbye.

Welcome 2009.

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31.12.08 00:10

Foot steps

Theevilspawn says: It's been a long time.

What foot steps are left?
Is it enough to represent success?
Or, it just proves useless-ness?

Just me and white; baskin' under the sun, Gewurztraiminer, a few books and nothing at all at Kenting - a dream that i really want at this mo'.

Labels: Musings. Desires.

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17.10.08 14:20

Meme-d

theevilspawnsays : Miss me?

Claudia meme-d me for this thing a long time ago, and I am attempting to do it now; Just to get away from assignments for a while.

1. What are your goals/dreams?
At this mo', I just want to graduate. In the near future, I want to be a successful career woman and hopefully, will be able to open my own coffee/ teas/ books/ music cafe. I want to be healthy and lead a happy life (that includes everyone!)

2. The most happiest thing in your life?
Lots- When i got the top student award, scholarship, goin on holidays with frens and family...The uncountable memories that represents a significant part of my life.

3. Favorite colour?
No fixed colour. It changes from day to day. Blue is the colour today.

4. What would you do if u have a million dollars?
Investment, Shopping, Travel, Food, spending on my family (prolly invest in the charity
foundation that John set up )

5. Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
Around the world Cruise, cuz i haven been on a cruise and it seems relaxing. In a cruise, I
can be away from the real world when u are on the ship and yet, when the ship stop at some point, I am in contact with the real world again. It seems like the best of both worlds!!!

6. What is your weakness that you can't stand the most?
I have lots but there are two that i think is the worst. IMPATIENT and GETTIN' BORED EASILY

7. What will you do if you face something sad?
Shop, eat, wine, blog and stuff myslef with taiwan-idol drama

8. Most afraid to lose..?
Two things -Myself and my family

9. What is the practical target within this 5 years?
Gettin PR in Australia, Build my career in Australia, Finish my degree and Masters, reimburse parents for studies fees and maybe finding Mr. Right?

10. Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
I am pretty sure that i love myself, despite the complaints and flaws =)

11. Favorite song?
No specifics but right now - Personal Angel by Tank and Loneliness by Nicholas Teo. Into old chinese songs lately.

12.What weird things that you wish to happen?
That i get over my fear of clowns? Been wanting to have a pig for a pet these days tho.

13.What age do you wish to live until?
Err.. Prolly 70? Cuz i dun wanna burden anyone and I dun want to live like a invalid who needs care all the time. Hard to say, accidents happen. So, it's best to live each day the way u want to the fullest.

14. You Hate which type of people the most?
I dont do hate, it's a waste of my time and energy, but i dun like back stabbers and traitors.

15. Are you satisfied with your life?
So-so. There are things i wish could be better ( like my results) but i cant have it all.

16. What do you wish to do the most now?
Sleep and get rid of all my assignments.

17. What do you think will make you think that the human nature is dark?
There's always shadows in life and human nature that i do not want to think about.

18. If you are in deepest depression, who will you look for?
A mental doc or someone with a PHD in psychology

19. A present that you wish to get from your lover.
Dun have one, so no comment

20. Who do you miss the most now?
My parents.

The five people I meme:
Alia, Lava, Yuanie, FragZ n Michelle

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