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Tunggu.

2011-03-21T00:39:00.004+08:00

theevilspawnssays: Is Honesty so Hard?

Waiting, waiting and waiting.
For something that is fruitless.
Yet, I cant Stop myself.
From Waiting.

16.11.09

2010-11-16T14:16:00.004+08:00

theevilspawnsays: Tired and Sleepy.

I vaguely remember the laughter,
I vaguely remember the happiness,

I do not recall any special outings,
I do not recall any special names,

I can barely remember the promises,

But I remmeber 16.11.09 and the rain walk.

Say What?

2010-11-14T22:55:00.001+08:00

Theeveilspawnsays: Hello, world.

Woman : It's okay.

Girl : You sure?

Woman : Yes. Okay la.

And now, things are different. What the hell?

RachelzLKM

2009-07-21T23:57:00.004+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: emotionally stunted.

Rachel shall not believe so easily.
Rachel shall not have too high a hope.
Rachel shall not believe in mere words.
Rachel shall not trust so blindly anymore.

"Mistakes, you will learn from" people so famously quote. How come Rachel is so stupid to believe after all that happened before? Why is Rachel letting her wall down? After all, what are human beings but selfish creatures?

Rachel shall not depend.
Rachel shall not hope.
Rachel shall not judge.
Rachel shall not be stupid.
And most importantly,
Rachel shall not be so naive anymore.

When irritation meets the will to type.

2009-01-07T21:27:00.004+08:00

theevilspawnsays: I am in love with Eddie Peng. *drools*

Whaattttt?

Is the reaction I get when i answered the question "How did u spend ny eve?"
Is it that hard to believe that i want to spend it alone?
Is it weird that i prefer the comfort of my own home compared to sticky sweaty bodies with possible attack of body odour?
Is it such an alien thing to spend the night before 2009 with the good company of white wine and laptop?
While some may think it's pathetic, weird and generally unacceptable, I find it absolutely fine.
In fact, I had a good time.
So, please refrain yourselves when i answer that particular question.

After parents gone and having the house to myself,
I realised that I can stand being alone.
Honestly, there are times when I longed for companionship,
But being alone is not such a bad thing after all.

감사합니다.

2008-12-31T22:48:00.004+08:00

theevilspwansays: Welcomed 2009 in the toilet. -__-

Dear 2008,

I laughed, cried, cursed, smiled, loved, grieved, hugged, achieved, graduated, dissapointed, felt stupid, travelled, grew, fell and matured with you.

Thank you and Goodbye.

Welcome 2009.

Foot steps

2008-12-30T22:10:00.007+08:00

Theevilspawn says: It's been a long time.

What foot steps are left?
Is it enough to represent success?
Or, it just proves useless-ness?

Just me and white; baskin' under the sun, Gewurztraiminer, a few books and nothing at all at Kenting - Dream a lil' Dream

Title-less.

2008-08-31T00:55:00.007+08:00

Theevilspwansays: Im bored of Brisbane.

Quote of the morning - Did anyone mentioned that u are a few french fries short of a Happy Meal? (S.E.P)

When i first saw this pic drawn by one of the main cast on One Tree Hill, I discarded it as a well-drawn pic. For me, it could mean anything.

It's true that humans are fickle. I rather get a dog now.

Damn, that motherchucker!

2008-08-24T17:04:00.006+08:00

theevilspawnsays: Uni + Work + Gym = No life.

Quote of the evening - Nothin' wrong with takin the road less travelled, luv.

8 more days.....

To the Season 2 of Gossip Girl.

Cheers and welcome back to:

Fashion.

Drama.

Friendships.

Relationships.

Biatch-ness.

Craziness.

Beautiful people.

Sarcasm.

Laughter.

TLC.

And the most important of all,

CHUCK BASS.

Horrendous Light.

2008-08-12T21:33:00.004+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: What choices do i have?

"It was something to have at least a choice of nightmares." - Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad

Shoes Shoes Shoes

2008-08-07T19:07:00.015+08:00

Theevilspawnsays : Shoes can be a girl's BBF too.

Retail therapy is sooooo good. Absolutely orgasmic!!!!

And on a totally random note, this is Linggesh and Navvii peeling almost 20kg worth of onions at Alia's house for the UQMSA BBQ thing. The funny part was all of us (those who helped and those who didnt) were wearing glasses, sunglasses and goggles at the end!!! It was night time too. Damn those onions!!!!!!!

Twilight.

2008-08-03T20:35:00.016+08:00

Theevilspwansays: S.T.U.P.I.D is a word that adptly describes me.

OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.

OMFG.OMFGO.OMFG.OMFG.OMFG.OMFG.OMFG.

It's finally outttttttttttttttttttttttt. After waiting for soo long.

Why isnt Borders open at this hour? WHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????

Ssshhhh....

2008-07-30T18:51:00.007+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: Silence is endearing, soothing and peaceful.

Song of the Day.

Intuition by Joyce Cheng.

Silence, as though laughter is no longer pleasant to listen to
Speech, cannot help but already cannot hear, how can I respond?
Can use the heart to listen, yet still cannot be sure
Both eyes can still see clearly

Who will be genuine towards me?
If spoken out, is that considered?
And no need to leave a promise, only say sweet words makes mistakes
Use my pair of eyes to look, would it be clear?
Ask who will treat with genuine feelings
Intuition infers that it shouldn’t be wrong

Suppose, I didn’t say I cared
In my heart, actually very clear about your real sincerity
Useless suspicions, if expresses
A gentle hug, will know

Get well.

2008-07-17T21:43:00.003+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: I dun want anything bad. I refuse to listen.

Wishing..

Yearning...

Hoping...

Wanting....

Needing....

Praying....

Longing...

Craving...

Desiring....

Lusting...

Aching....

Demanding...

Pining....

Hungering....

Thirsting..

For luck, wishes, blessings and fortune.

I need sleep

2008-07-01T00:23:00.007+08:00

Thedevilindisguisesays: I prolly need sleeping pills.

It's been 3 wonderful days in Melb.Sight-seeing. The fact that i travelled here on my own, following my whims is fun-tastic.

Thanks HEAPS. kENNY fOO.

Blackhole.

2008-06-22T01:10:00.004+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: Why did the eyes water?

No direction,

No meaning,

No stuff to look forward to,

No fun,

No sadness,

No life.

Come back to me.

2008-06-07T21:20:00.004+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: The Chronicles of Narnia, Prince Caspian is not bad. Except for his clothings.

So out of sorts....
With whatever that is happening now.

Sigh...

I wish that the person who i used to be,
Will come back now.
I so need u now, right here.
Cuz, I cant stand it anymore.
Im beginning to despise the new me.

Tainted.

2008-06-01T21:23:00.023+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: I dont wanna drown.

I am transfixed by the sight,

Of a rose,

So pure and white like snow,

Tainted by blood.

Meteor Rain.

2008-05-05T11:33:00.007+08:00

theevilspawnsays:Silence is comforting. Who says TV is not good?? Learnt many things from the idiot box.

When she was just a little girl, a meteor came into her life.
Sometimes she resent the meteor for all of its preaching and she did not take all to heart.
But, deep down she knows what it all means.
She knew it was for her own good.
She's thankful for the care and concern.
She took the meteor for granted and do not even have any photos with the meteor.
She guilty, sad and words cant describe the black sea that she's swimming in.
The meteor is gone but she will cherish the memories for life.
She will never forget what the meteor has taught her.
It will always stay with her, and be her guiding light, her shooting star
She knows that the shooting star will be looking after all her family, bringing light to their life, guiding them and be the brightest star high in the air.
The girl is waiting for her meteor and she knows that they will meet again, no matter when or how or where.

Forgiveness, a word to all

2008-04-28T20:43:00.004+08:00

Theevilspawnsays : Yay.. Jack won SYTYCD:Australia!!!!!!! Happy happy happy happyyyyyyyy

A poem called "Forgiveness Lane,” by Martha Gilbert Dickenson that i came across when i was having some problems during my college years, where stuff just hit me even tho i did not do anything, other than just being a college student who tries to give college her best shot. I may have done something, but that does not warrant ppl to be two faced backstabbers. I rather u guys come and talk to me straight to my face.Or maybe u just realise that it was a pointless, stupid and not to mention - very high schoolish? Who cares what others achieve, as long as you have done ur best? Does other people's opinions matter much? Even when it hit me, i was too lazy to care. In fact, I was more astonished than it happened than sad. How can coll-educated ppl be some lame? Jeez, i tot high school was for that. Envy, much? Or having too much free time to think about useless stuff that ultimately does not help at all?

Dun backstab and come to me if u have a problem. Do u realise how stupid was it is to say stuff behind my back, while i know abt it and than come to me and smile when u needed my help in stuff? Seriously, I think if u spend ur free time wisely, u can understand the material and for one second, stop thinking that u know all. Stop complaining that u did not get the marks u deserve.Stop talking and Do something about it. If u cant grasp the concept that no one will be interested in ur complaints, but how u rise above ur failure, ur future in life is not looking too good, my fren. Hmmph. U might think it's stupid for helping but honestly, Im just helping cuz i still treat u as a fren and i do not want a guilty conscience. No way am I gonna be on the same level as you. Karma bugs, ya know?

U may go"wtf? why is she saying something now, of all times?" Well, i need to get it off my chest and stop letting pest bugging me. i want you to think of what u have done and see if u regret it. I want u to think that is it fair to judge me when i have not dome anything that bug you. I o not think it's you or your fren's problem to begin with. And, now u go backstab my frens, whose friendship with me is tarnished. Having Fun ruining lives and being a bitch much?Be careful of all ur frens. They can see clearly what u are doing, even tho u think they cant. However, I must thank you. What u put me through made me make a decision that changed my life in a very good way. A word of advice, get a freakin life that is yours and stop comparing and whispering. Go on with ur oh-so-wonderful and full-of-drama life and leave me to my boring one.

Forgiveness lane is old as youth,
You cannot miss your way;
’T is hedged with flowering thorn forsooth where white doves fearless stray.

You must walk gently with your Love,
frail blossoms dread your feet,
And bloomy branches close above Make heaven near and sweet.

Some lovers fear the stile of pride,
And turn away in pain.
But more have kissed where white doves hide and blessed Forgiveness Lane!

J'adore.

2008-04-21T18:29:00.010+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: Money, where art thou?

People always asks,
Why u guys leave so early and come back late?
They do not understand
But, I do.
I love u, no because of what u did,
But the reason why u did it.

Happy Belated Birthday, Pops.
Xoxo

Broken

2008-04-13T11:47:00.005+08:00

Theevilspawnsays: What's wrong with staying at home? On weekends?

If I could collect a dime,
For everytime I fcuk up,
I would be well on my way to become a millionaire.

I cannot believe,
That i traded something important,
For a few minutes where pain cannot be felt.

What kind of person does that?

Kokoro's Yuumei

2008-04-06T22:36:00.007+08:00

theevilspawnofsatansays : Numbers and i are a mis-match made in heaven.

There is this insistent knocking on the door, which is getting louder and louder. It is the only sound that i can hear. Each time i reach out to the doorknob, everything becomes still. I cant breathe. I want to welcome and be a gracious hostess, yet i cant bring myself to open the door and embrace the truth.

I am what I always am, a coward who smiles for everyone, yet cries at the deepest, darkest corner of herself.

What the hell happened?

2008-04-02T20:16:00.006+08:00

thespawnofevil says : Assignments are not going well and my health is so-so. Ça ne me plaît pas. Hmmph.

Mom used to say that what i did in the past will affect my future. She always believed that some part of the past contained the best memories which cushioned the now safe and bright future.

For me, the past was filled up to the bucket of my mistakes. I literally have a graveyard of my own making, haunted by errors and filled with regrets.

" Forget the bad stuff, the unhappy stuff " u said.

No. I do not want to. I want to remember the good memories and to keep the bad, as a reminder of my stupidity.

Wheels of Destiny

2008-04-02T13:45:00.004+08:00

theevilspawnsays : What the hell am i doin here when there are assignments to be completed?

Happy when it happens.
Tingling sensations when it is returned.
Blissful when good times roll by.
Content when nothing much is expected.
Apprehensive when too much is needed.
Lazy when much more effort is required.
Afraid when commitment is wanted.
Hurt when bad times visit.
Letting go is hard when the time comes.
Heal when emotions and time passed by.

Why do we put ourselves in these situations? It's a Ferris wheel until the right one comes. Even than, it's not guaranteed that the ferries wheel will not stop moving.

When the mind wonders.....

2008-04-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

theevilspawnsays: Hi, Blogspot. Ciao, Xanga.

She should be concentrating on her assignment.
She should be analysing the contents and at the very least, make head or tails about it.
She should be evaluating the contents and applying them to contemporary management.

Instead,

She is facebooking.
She is wasting minutes in gmail.
She is talking crap on msn.
She is unable to think straight cuz she is too sleepy.

Oh, crap.

The only thing that exists in her mind right this moment is the feeble question of why cant she stay up late to do assignments when she can endure sleepless nights caused by social needs?